Thursday, July 7, 2011

Glee

Yes. I am totally addicted to Glee.I started watching it a few weeks ago, and got hooked. So since then I've watched all episodes, except one. When I got to the last episode of season two the file just didn't work, and since I found it impossible to download just that last episode, so now I'm waiting for the whole season to download AGAIN. And it takes forever, since our internet has decided not only to shut down occasionally, but also not to download anything at a higher speed than 150 kB/s .__. I JUST WANT TO SEE THAT DAMN LAST EPISODE! DD:

*goes kill internet*

Yeah....


No comment xD

Sunday, July 3, 2011

I should be sleeping

But instead I'm lying in my bed, drawing~


Umm, yeah, it's supposed to be Teru of Versailles (^_^) As you can see it's kinda messy and sketch-like, but I'm thinking of keeping working on it and finish it, what do you think?

I know I haven't really been updating regularly lately, I really have to get better at that. And this post isn't really long either, but I guess it's better than nothing, right? xD
Okay, now it's over 3 am here, and I really need to sleep. I'm gonna try to update regularly, so stay tuned! Or something xD

Good night~ zZz(_v_)

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

New cosplayproject (again)

Teru (Versailles) \(^0^)/
Have wanted to cosplay him for a while now >v<
Haven't decided if I'm gunna do Philia ver. (blue one) or Masquerade ver. (white one). I wanna do Masquerade but my girlfriend, who's doing Hizaki wanna do Philia. But Masquerade is much nicer, rigth? :3
But yeah, That's pretty much it ^^; And oh, I'm gunna get my hair cut and dyed like him someday soon >v< Just need to build up some courage ^^;

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Movie~

Finally our movie for japanese class is edited and done~! Enjoy!

Friday, April 15, 2011

Sick (.__.)

So I've caught a cold (.__.) Stayed home from school today and have done nothing but lying in my bed playing pokemon soulsilver on an emulator on my computer :c I really hope it will be better until tomorrow, when I'm going to a convention~ And there I'm going to buy a real nintendo ds from my friend! (^0^) And yesterday we ordered heartgold (I like that version more xD), so hopefully I'll be able to play it for real, and not on an emulator, next week (>v<)

Thursday, April 14, 2011

New cosplayplan~

A couple of months ago me and some friends were going for a photoshoot, and one of them was in my room, straightening his hair, and when he came down to our living room he was like "OMFG SHIT HOLY CRAP YOU LOOK JUST LIKE CLOUD!" And then he dragged me up and made me stand beside my huuuge poster of Cloud Strife from final fantasy and got like "Shiit you look soooo alike!" And well, since then I have actually been considering cosplaying him, but since I don't think we look alike I've never really gotten serious about it. However, yesterday I watched Advent Children in our living room, and my mum came and watched and said something like "Don't you dress up like him?" and pointed at Cloud. I answered no, and she said I looked very much like him in my gray/white wig. So after my brother agreed I have started considering it more seriously, and I've even looked for a nice wig at ebay ^^ Hard too find though <<
And I talked to my friend (who told me I looked like Cloud in the first place xD) and he wants to do Vincent with me! :D And I've got another friends who's going to cosplay Tifa :'D
It won't be done in a while though, I've got soooo many projects already >.< But expect it some time next year! 8D

Monday, April 11, 2011

Speaking of things getting worse....

Okay, the story I'm about to tell will be VERY long, and VERY complicated, so I'll start with telling you the background. And I'm 17 now, just so you can follow the years easily.

My parents have been divorced since I was 5 (like 12 years), but they have always lived close to each other (not more than 30 km away) and me and my 3 years younger brother used to move between them  every second week.
However, when I was about 10 or something dad met a new woman (who had a daughter 4 years younger than me from an earlier relationship), which he married 5 years ago. At the beginning everything went fine, and we were all like one big, happy family. But soon after they got married, dads new wife started to get more and more bitchy towards me and my brother, and we felt more and more unwanted there, even though we knew dad wanted us there no matter what. I think that made him more and more stressed, and he got angry very easy. Since my brother also is easily enraged, the two of them had fights very often, and one day my brother had had enough, and moved to mum to live there all the time, instead of moving between them, which we had been doing until then. That was in the winter like 2-3 years ago I think.

In the spring the following year, My mum and I had gone on a ski vacation, just the two of us, and that turned out to be a catastrophe. We had fights all the time, and at the train home I decided to live with dad. Said and done, I packed my stuff and moved. Me and my brother lived like that for a while, just meting the other parent every second weekend, until summer break that year. At summer breaks we have always live 3 weeks with one parent, and then 3 weeks with the other, and did so this year as well.

During the last year, my mum had began with cycling, with a real road bike and stuff, and when I lived with her that summer we went out on a tour in the sun, and I fell for the sport and started to exercise on a regular basis. Now I changed my mind completely, and wanted to move back to mum. The only problem was that mum thought that when we lived with both of our parents, dad didn't take responsibility for us at all (like following us to the dentist and stuff) so she told me that I had to chose. Due to me being in love with the cycling sport I chose to live with mum, and just visit dad every second weekend. And that's where we are today. Except for the fact that I hardly ever go cycling anymore.

Due to my mums job, she has to go abroad every now and then, and when she does, we live with dad. That is the situation this week, and me and my brother lives with dad, his wife and her daughter, and also their little son, who's 3 years old.

Now to the problem. Dad makes no secret over his sorrow over us living with mum, and I do understand him. While I love my mum very much, I know that she can be very egoistic and greedy, even though she may seem kind on the outside. Dad on the other hand is very easily enraged, but genuinely kind and caring. He seriously has got to be one of the most un-egoistic and caring people I know. The fact that I have come to realize this later makes all this even more painful. Dad doesn't deserve this life. Abandoned by his children, living with an egoistic bitch as a wife and seem to be generally unhappy. The only time I see him laugh and smile nowadays is either when he's with his brothers, or when me and my brother jokes with him the way we've always done. Though, when we do, his wife is always interrupting and taking it all serious and ruins everything. I seriously doubt he's happy together with her. But I hope he is, because he deserves all the happiness in this world.

The problem with all this is that I, more than anything, want to spend more time with him, but, as I mentioned, mum don't want me to live with both of them, and it's too much trouble moving every second week. And since I live with mum at the moment, and since it's much more comfortable with only having to care about two other people and not five, I've just continued living with mum.

The solution to my problem may seem obvious, but keep in mind that I love the both of them incredibly much, and choosing just one is impossible. I seriously don't know what to do. All I want is to be able to live alone, in an apartment somewhere, but I won't turn 18 until October 27th, and living alone is expensive. And I can't hide the fact that I probably won't make it either. Then I won't be able to live with any of my parents, and I really want to spend more time with them. Both of them. I guess I'm not ready to move out just yet, and I doubt that I will be in half a year. My time will come, but I think it will take a while.

I don't think anyone will read all this, and I didn't write it for someone to read it either. I just had to get it off my heart. And it's a very personal subject, so I'm not very confident in posting it here. I've never even spoken to anyone about it, except for mentioning it to my girlfriend once. Oh well. Hope you understand my problem and not only think I'm a spoiled brat. Which I probably am.

Long post is long.
Good night.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Cutting film and other thoughts

As I said, we finished filming for our project last weekend (or last-last weekend or something) and today I've been working on the editing the whole day and now, 11.00 pm, it's finished! \(^0^)/ Takes forever to save though (<.<). Hopefully you can get a preview tomorrow!

And now for something completely different!

I've realized this blog is awfully superficial, even though I created it for the sole reason to be able to write things off my heart. Though, I created it when things were a bit bad, but since then it has gotten better and better. But, since I see life as a sinusoid (just joking, like tops and dales and stuff) I think that when life has gone upwards long enough, and I feel like the princess of the world, everything will get worse again, and it won't stop until I'm down at the bottom of the dale again. At least I think it will, judging from own life experience.

Oh well, I need to sleep. Lol I always get emotional late at night .__.
Nighty~

PS. Sinusoid:
Get what I mean?

Saturday, April 9, 2011

I want to go to Malmö :c

There's this cosplay meet-up in Malmö which I wanted to attend, but since it's my sister's birthday party is today I need to stay at home, even though I'm just sitting in my room in front of the computer all  the time :C This sucks :C I just hope dad let's me go later, hopefully before everyone's going home...

Emo rant ftw xD Now I'll go back to playing pokémon black :3

Friday, April 8, 2011

Birthday present~

Tomorrow is my little sis' birthday, so I made a drawing of Hizaki (guitarist of Versailles) for her (^_^)
She don't know about the band or anything, but she likes pretty things, and he's one of the most prettiest things I know (^.^)U What do you think~?

I think it looks a bit odd with the mouth being far too small and stuff but I'm actually pretty proud (^.^)U I hope she will like it, 'cause I don't think I've spent this long time on a single drawing for a loooong time xD

Also, I should sleep now, going up early tomorrow to celebrate her with cake and stuff~ And in the afternoon the rest of our relatives are coming over for more cake and cookies \(^0^)/ I'm gunna get fatz x'D

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Now I've been a good cosplayer.

Okay, last weekend must have been the most productive weekend in my cosplay history. On Saturday me and my girlfriend went out on a 3 hour long photoshoot, and we got like sooo many good pictures (>v<)
And the next day our friend came over so we could finish filming for our Japanese project, which also turned out to be super awesome! I'm so happy now~ :D (And I feel ego xD) Anyhow, check out some of the pics (an prepare for a spam you've never seen before). Prussia is me and Austria is Sandlion-curse~


First I want to introduce my gilbird, he's so super cute! >v<
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And now for some unseriousness!
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If anyone wonders what I'm doing, I did NOT just get caught in jacking off my invisible five meters.
lol I wonder how we managed to get a shot like this x'D



 I believe I can flyyyyy~~ 


...... Ouch >.<

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Future cosplays!

Haven't posted any cosplay lists here, so I'll just do it now~
(if nothing else is said, I will do the cosplays together with my most beloved girlfriend :3)

 First up is Prussias original outfit (from Hetalia), which is now 99,9999% done, just need to make the belt ^^U
Doing this cosplay for a small convention in Lund, but mainly for our Japanese project which we will start filming seriously this weekend :D
 Second, Joker, from Kuroshitsuji. Everything, even skeleton hand, is finished except for the jacket.
Gonna wear this the first day at Sweden's biggest convention, UppCon, together with a whole bunch of awesome Kuroshitsuji-cosplayers! I'm sooo looking forward to it! :D
 After that I'll cosplay Gakupo, matryoshika version. Have the wig at home, just need to buy fabric and star sewing~
This is another mini-project of mine, will be wearing it the last day at Uppcon this year.
 Next project is Italy, RomaHeta version. Don't know RomaHeta? Check google! 8D
This is my main project for UppCon, which I will be wearing on Saturday at UppCon

These are all 100% (more or less) confirmed that I will make. The following ones are cosplays that I want to make sometime, some more likely to be made than others.
 Gilbert Nightray, from Pandora Hearts. This costume is very likely to be made, since I've got an adorable danish Oz to take photos with. If we go to J-popCon in Denmark this year I will most probably bring this for one of the days and hope my Oz want to cosplay with me x'D
 And I really WANT to cosplay Canada, from Hetalia, just because I enjoy being uke from time to time, okay? And I've got the most handsome America evah~ :3
Don't know if I will bring this to a con though. I most probably will sometime.
And last (and least wanted lol) is Sheryl Nome from Macross Fontier. The only reason I want to cosplay her is because I want to cosplay a really girly character sometime, and I want to be a real diva! >8D No, but seriously I want to cosplay her. But I don't know any one else who likes Macross Fontier. I haven't even finished watching it myself yet /shot






Okay, I think that's all~
So long! 8D

Cosplay finished!

Finished my Prussia-cosplay today! \(^0^)/ It took me like... three days? o.O Bought fabric and started on the jacket last Friday, and went to dad's place and stayed there until Sunday, so I wasn't able to make any progress at all on Saturday, but finished the jacket on Sunday, and then made the pants after school today. Yay for working quick lol xD
Anyhow, I'm sorry I don't have any pictures, but my black shirt needs to be washed before used again (<.<) But I promise to show you when I've taken some decent photos 8D

So long!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Work in progress

Bought fabric for my Prussia cosplay yesterday, and now I have finally started to sew! \(^0^)/

So far I have finished the basics of the jacket, now working on the lining ^^ Haven't started on the pants yet, I hate to sew pants (>o<) But I will start making them as soon as the jacket is done~


 Also, I found the nicest buckle EVER for the belt! \(>0<)/ I totally love it! (>v<)

And ehm yes, this is what I do when I should be studying <.<

It's sooooo boring to wait for the fabric paint to dry <.<

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Photoshoot

Had a photshoot yesterday~

Enjoy!

Lost in memories

Peaceful death

 Taking a shower~



Friday, March 18, 2011

Nailpainting~

Felt creative a couple of days ago, so I gave my nails an unusual make-over (^v^)





Oh, and I had Italy on my right thumb, but it didn't show on the picture :C
You see any pattern? (not Hetalia-related at all *hint hint*) 8D

Photoshoot

There's a photoshoot comming up this weekend  \(^0^)/
Fake blood +Prussia=epic shooting (hopefully) 8D

Short post is short.
See yah!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Pray for Japan

As you may know, Japan got hit by a magnitude 8.9 earthquake last Friday, which spawned a devastating tsunami along the east coast. The situation is catastrophic, and the death toll is rising every day. Send them a thought and pray for them.


If you want to help with more than just prayers, go to this page to check out what you can do!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

OkashiiCon convention report!

So I went to OkashiiCon in Malmö this weekend, and it was totally awesome! Seriously, it must have been one of the best conventions I've been to, ever! I met my cosplayfriends from all over Sweden again, and a lot of new people, like this group of awesome Danish cosplayers :D They were all so cute and adorable *__*

As for cosplay, as usual I ended up with other cosplays than I had planned. Both the first and second day I went as Succession war Prussia, and the third day as casual Prussia xD

I really miss the convention now :C It was sooo much fun :'D
There's a mini convention in Lund next month, Kodachion, and then it will be like 2 months until the next convention. I'm going to dieee x.x  Oh well, there will be enough time to make new cosplays at least 8D Might be posting a cosplay list sometime soon~

Monday, March 7, 2011

My new haircut~

SORRY for letting you wait so long :c Don't hate me, okay?

Anyway, my new haircut, styled:

 New haicut, unstyled xD

 Old haircut (old photo orz   /dies)




Yay, egopic spam~ Or something xD

Oh well, have fun and stay wealthy and stuff~

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Cosplay/Convention update!

There's a convention coming up this weekend which I will attend. Planed to cosplay as Neji the first day, Prussia on saturday and Gakupo on sunday, but since I cut my hair last week and I don't have a wig, I can't cosplay Neji. and dad told me the other day that my cousin are having a birthday party on sunday so I have to leave early and I'm too lazy to put on makeup and stuff for just a couple of hours so.... That leaves me with one cosplay left. Down from three. I know I could just cosplay someone else on friday, but it will be nice just being myself for once ;) Oh, and I will compete in the cosplay competition as Prussia! Wish me luck!

Also there's a convention close to where I live in the end of April but I'm not sure what to cosplay there. Any ideas? :S

Then we have UppCon in June! :D My first convention ever and therefore very special to me. And this year my favorite band and coming from Japan to perform!! .'D As for cosplay I will go as Joker (which will be finished by then if I'm not shamefully lazy), Prussia and Matryoshka version Gakupo :D

I will also attend NärCon in August and probably KultCon, but I haven't planned my cosplay yet.

Okay, now you know which conventions I will be attending, which I guess like half of you don't give a shit about. So I'll tell you about future cosplay plans instead.
I've got a "future cosplay"-list on my page, but if you feel lazy today I'll just tell you here. First I'm going to finish my Joker cosplay (which means sew the jacket) and do some finishing touches on Succession war Prussia (EPIC SWORDS FTW 8'D). Then I'll probably go for Gakupo, because it's easy, and I've already got a wig. Then... It's all empty in my head. I've got thousands of characters I want to cosplay, but most of them is either way over my limit to make, others just feels very distant, like, you know you want to do it but it feels like you'll never make it.
Oh well, one cosplay I really want to do is Canada from Hetalia. And before you think like "Whut? You're like, super tall!" I'm just tall as him, 177 cm 8). The reason why I'm not doing it is... well, I just did a Hetalia cosplay. I want to move on to something different. At the same time I'm a huge Hetalia-geek so I guess the next thing you'll see from me is him. xD I also want to make Prussias original clothes. That's all from Hetalia. At the moment.

Next cosplay I'm considering is Sheryl Nome from Macross fontier (which most of you voted for in my latest poll). She's just beautiful.

Last but not least, I have this urge to do a cosplay from Kuroshitsuji II. I'm totally in love with both the first and the second season. Though I don't know who to cosplay. I was thinking of Timber (one of the triplets in the Trancy household) but I don't think anyone will recognize him. Again, any ideas?

Okay, that was a huuuuge journal entry. So sorry OTL. If you read it all you deserve a cookie. Here: :iconawesomecookieplz:

So long!

Wigstyling~

My girlfriend got her Kaito-wig a couple of days ago, and yesterday a brought it to my place for some styling~  (^O^)




It's for the Matryoshka version:



They look so kyuuuute~  (>v<) And yes, I'm gunna be Gakupo~  (ε)

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Saturday, February 26, 2011

10 (very) random things about me:

1.  My fave colors is blue and purple
2.  I'm very, very lazy
3.  I used to go horseback riding, and sometimes I want to start again
4.  I'm often broke (sucks at saving money) xD
5.  I always use at least 3 different bottles of nail polish when painting my nails (random color, shiny/glittery stuff and top coat)
6.  I like vacuuming and such but I hate the type of cleaning when you just pick up stuff from the floor and put in on the shelves and stuff (which means my room always looks like a bombing zone, while the rest of the house is perfectly cleaned by me)
7.  My Japanese teacher is super awesome!
8.  I get addicted to all kind of stuff DAMN fast (like sugar << (and I'm damn responsive too, not a good combination)) xD
9.  I enjoy playing RPG's (preferably online like WoW) 8D
10. My room smells like my girlfriend atm o.O AND I MISS HER  >.<

Friday, February 25, 2011

Versailles to Sweden!

I JUST FOUND OUT MY FAVE BAND OF ALL TIME IS COMING TO SWEDEN, AND I'M ABLE TO SEE THEM! LIVE!! They'll be playing at this convention in June (which I already have got tickets to~) called UppCon :D Proof:
6/3 (June 3rd) UppCon in Uppsala, Sweden

I can hardly believe it's true (>v<) I'm going to see them liiive~ *off to dreamland~*

Oh, and the band is Versailles -philharmonic quintet- ^^U

Today I have not-

-sewed my jeans
-studied japanese
-cleaned my room
- worked on cosplay
-bought new clothes
-finished my Swedish essay (which should have been handed in last Friday)
-finished history essay (which shouldn't be finished until next week, so that one's OK)

And all of the these are things I needed/wanted to do today. I'm such a lazy bastard.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Cosplayspam~

Got nothing better to do, so I'll just spam cosplaypics~ (WARNING: contains yaoi)

 Old pic I found in mah computer the other day :3


 Dead~


 .... Dying? xD


 Dead again... I've got no imagination


 .... Alive! 8D


Yaoi~ >8D


So long~  :3